Thoughts

Somehow I always seem to do my thinking at the most inconvenient times...like right now. It's 3am and I have a final in 5 hours that I haven't started studying for, and a presentation, take home final and paper due at 2pm...none of which are finished yet. I've been thinking about so much stuff lately. That's really what it is, just stuff. None of it ever seems like enough to just blog about, so I guess I wait until I compile enough "stuff" to talk.

I've been thinking about patience a lot. Everyone always says to just be patient and everything will work out. I'm getting really tired of being patient. I've been single and patient for 23 years...I just don't get how much longer I have to be patient. I think that being patient so long is making me impatient. How ironic.

The last couple weeks I keep hearing how I've been different. In some ways, I think it's a good thing. There are so many things I've had to let go of and I feel like I'm slowly learning how to do that; however, at the same time, I'm not sure if the different that I am right now is so great. Things I used to care about and put a lot of effort in just don't seem as important to me anymore. Maybe that comes with readjusting my priorities or something, but I'm still trying to figure out how things should be.

Before Thanksgiving, I went to a camp for the weekend and was a counselor to high school age boys and girls. The first night we had to give our testimony. That always makes me a bit nervous. I don't mind giving my testimony anymore because I'm comfortable with it and know that it got me where I am now, but I am never quite sure how I should say things. I wonder how I would react if I were hearing someone give my testimony for the first time. I do know that when you ask God to strengthen your testimony...He'll strengthen it in ways you never thought you could handle...and then some more.

Tonite I'm really thankful for friends who will bring you energy drinks at 3 in the morning just to keep you going for the next few hours.

5 more days until warm weather!